Friday, February 13, 2009

If You Forget Me

a shore where there is peace and quiet...








a couple of weeks ago, a friend lent me her collection on poetry and i instantly liked " If You Forget Me" by Pablo Neruda (http://nobelprize.org/nobel_prizes/literature/laureates/1971/neruda-bio.html.) more interesting is the translation, or where it was translated from which is immediately below:



If You Forget Me
- Pablo Neruda



I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I lookat the crystal moon,
at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists:
aromas, light, metals,were little boats that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.


Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.


If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.


But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.


Si Tu Me Olvidas


Quiero que sepas
una cosa.

T� sabes c�mo es esto:
si miro
la luna de cristal, la rama roja
del lento oto�o en mi ventana,
si toco
junto al fuegola impalpable ceniza
o el arrugado cuerpo de la le�a,
todo me lleva a ti,
como si todo lo que existe:
aromas, luz, metales,
fueran peque�os barcos que navegan
hacia las islas tuyas que me aguardan.


Ahora bien,
si poco a poco dejas de quererme
dejar� de quererte poco a poco.


Si de pronto
me olvidas
no me busques,
que ya te habr� olvidado.
Si consideras largo y loco
el viento de banderas
que pasa por mi vida
y te decides
a dejarme a la orilla
del coraz�n en que tengo ra�ces,
piensa
que en esa d�a,
a esa hora
levantar� los brazos
y saldr�n mis ra�ces
a buscar otra tierra.


Pero
si cada d�a,
cada hora,
sientes que a m� est�s destinada
con dulzura implacable,
si cada d�a sube
una flor a tus labios a buscarme,
ay amor m�o, ay m�a,
en m� todo ese fuego se repite,
en m� nada se apaga ni se olvida,
mi amor se nutre de tu amor, amada,
y mientras vivas estar� en tus brazos
sin salir de los m�os.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Bushfire in Australia


"bushfire", photo taken from the news report






i was hoping to watch the movie "Australia" starring the Aussies Nicole Kidman and Hugh Jackman and probably enjoy the sight of the "outback" and kangaroo in the cinema during the weekend but my health concerns required me to stay home instead. so i just relaxed and wished that i would be able to join crowds, go to the mall, and hope that i can watch the movie soon.










earlier, it's my mom's turn to see her doctor after her most recent hospitalisation and i had the chance to surf the net no matter how challenging could it be. i wanted to try opening my email account, which might work out this time, but my attention was turned to the news headlines and i found it terribly devastating to read about the tremendous loss of lives, and properties in my dear state of Victorian where its people have been kind and friendly. while it has been cold winters on other parts of the world, its summer down under and i heard that temperature rose to 46 degrees Celcius in Melbourne (when 40 degrees Celcius in Sydney has been extremely warm enough when i celebrated the new year's day with Sydney based friends not too long ago).












accordingly, the official toll rose to 131 according to the police and part of the report says: "The death toll surpasses that from the 1983 Ash Wednesday bushfires, in which 75 people died in Victoria and South Australia , and the Black Friday bushfires of 1939, which killed 71." (http://au.news.yahoo.com/a/-/latest/5307913/vic-bushfires-death-toll-107-police/, http://au.news.yahoo.com/a/-/latest/5306498/25-killed-victorian-bushfires/, http://au.news.yahoo.com/a/-/latest/5308391/rescuers-brace-bushfire-horror/)










part of the reports said:"By 8.30pm (AEDT), at least 750 homes had been destroyed, more than 330,000 hectares burnt out - 220,000 ha alone in the Kinglake Complex wildfire - while authorities said some fires could take weeks to contain.










sometime ago, i did a case study about these bushfires on Ash Wednesday and Good Friday, but the things i learned from lots of readings in relation to bushfires has not really prepared me to deal with this current bushfire, i felt very sad. while my heart goes to the Aussies affected by this tragic incident, i wish that the devastation would be contained and would end sooner than expected.








in addition to prayers, Victorian victims also needs material help- badly. i have seen this attachment in the news report, although Australian Competition and Consumer Commission (ACCC) has warned about possible fraud in receiving donations, i hope that this is the legitimate link as provided in the news report :

[Victorian Bushfire Appeal: http://au.news.yahoo.com/a/-/newshome/5307609/victorian-bushfire-appeal how to donate]


Friday, February 6, 2009

Year 3

Sunday Market at St Kilda



today is the third year since i left my apartment close to St Kilda Beach for other pursuits. earlier today, i realised i have been missing my walks in this lovely place. prior to flying back home in the evening of february three years ago, i made a my final walk with my flatmate and we took these photos. i also did my silent farewell to this place who has been a witness to my greatest joys and pains.
i am now at home, quite content- but somehow i still miss St Kilda, i miss the uni, i miss Melbourne and i miss Australia. and so are the people and friends whom i shared my laughs and tears with. and i hope i can visit and perhaps stay- soon.



Watching boats at St Kilda Beach

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Flowers and Weeds

prettiest in pink





It is not enough for a gardener to love flowers; he must also hate weeds
-American Proverb

Monday, February 2, 2009

Australian Open 2009




this photo was taken from today's most popular article "Dealing with the hurt" written by Eleanor Preston, http://www.australianopen.com/en_AU/news/articles/2009-02-01/200902011233413443968.html





Rafael Nadal of Spain falls to the ground after winning championship point in his men's final match against Roger Federer of Switzerland during day fourteen.
Photo by: Getty Images






photos were uploaded from the Official Australian Open Website, http://www.australianopen.com/en_AU/index.html







the last time i watched Federer in Melbourne was when he won the Australian Open Championship in 2006 over Marcos Baghdatis- he wept in triumph. this time, i missed watching the Oz Open games even in TV as i was too busy worrying about other matters-my health and my mom's latest hospitalisation included. few minutes ago(after finding out that my mom is feeling better although still in the hospital, i wondered what came up of the Oz Open championship and the big fan of Federer i am, i took time to have a look at the website http://www.australianopen.com/en_AU/index.html .









i was expectant that Federer made it, and probably would make the record as what Pete Sampras did- or perhaps even more. on the contrary it was Nadal who is proclaimed as" the new king". i felt bad for Federer and i was so touched while reading today's most popular article by Eleanor Preston " Dealing with the hurt" (http://www.australianopen.com/en_AU/news/articles/2009-02-01/200902011233413443968.html?promo=hp_toparticles). somehow, like any common mortals dealing with their own losses, he has to deal with the pain of a loss. and somehow, a fresh face on Oz Open( i was thinking it would be a match between Marat Safin and Roger Federer the second time around like they did in 2005) Rafael Nadal would be this year's champion no matter how hard Roger tried to win.









i first saw this Spanish tennis player playing "doubles" in one of the smaller courts in Melbourne five years ago- the same time that i watched how Roger Federer defeated my first love in tennis- Andre Agassi. my Mummy Hen, who practically grew up playing tennis( and was the instant tennis instructor explaining how the scores are gained all throughout the games) must be really good in looking how tennis is excellently played or is pretty much talented in identifying who are the outstanding players or who could be future champions. five years ago, Mummy Hen insisted that we would sit and watch the then not very popular(at least to me) Rafael Nadal. at the time, i was more excited and thrilled finding out which court would (the pretty boy American tennis champion) Andy Roddick play.















five years after watching Nadal play tennis in that smaller court( i can't even remember what court it must have been), he defeated Federer who defeated then the reigning Oz Open king Agassi.










i became unhappy watching the picture of Roger's loss but i turned gleeful watching the picture and reading about Rafael's win. i can still hope that Roger will get the championship trophy again in the next year's open but for now, its Rafael's turn to reign.














and somehow i feel bad as i miss watching Australian Open in Melbourne, i missed watching it on television, and more importantly, i miss Melbourne and the friends i watched Oz open with.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Chinese New Year

opening of the Chinatown

watching the celebration of Chinese New Year



watching after sunset in Davao City's Magsaysay Park














i was hoping to catch a glimpse at the sunset in Magsaysay Park in Davao City and delight myself in eating durian while watching the sunset but i arrived few minutes late- missing the sunset. i just wondered when would i have the luxury of time to do this again as i am up for other concerns.









yet i was delighted to see the opening of the Chinese New Year celebrations. and i joined the crowd as they enjoyed the opening of their own " China Town" by looking out and trying to sample the dishes in the food booths. i ended up finishing a big apple bought from one of the fruit vendors which made me happier. what a fun way to celebrate Kung Hei Fat Choi!

Monday, January 26, 2009

The Prayer, My Prayer







pretty flowers outside the chapel where "The Prayer" was performed

















I pray You’ll be our eyes, and watch us where we go,
and help us to be wise, in times when we don’t know.
Let this be our prayer when we lose our way:
Lead us to a place, Guide us with Your grace
To a place where we’ll be safe.





La luce che Tu dai (The light that You give us)
I pray we’ll find Your light
Nel cuore resterà (will stay in our hearts)
And hold it in our hearts A ricordarci che (reminding us that…)
When stars go out each night
L’eterna stella sei (You are the everlasting star).



Nella mia preghiera (In my prayer).
Let this be our prayer
Quanta fede c’è (there’s so much faith)
When shadows fill our day:
Lead us to a place,
Guide us with Your grace,
Give us faith so we’ll be safe.









Sognamo un mondo senza più violenza (We dream [of] a world without more violence)
Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza (A world of justice and of hope).
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino (Everyone give your hand to your neighbor),
Simbolo di pace e di fraternità (Symbol of peace and brotherhood)



La forza che ci dai (The strength You give us)
We ask that life be kind
È il desiderio che (is the wish that)
And watch us from above.
Ognuno trovi amore (everyone may find love)
We hope each soul will find
Intorno e dentro a sè (around and within himself)
Another soul to love.



Let this be our prayer (Let this be our prayer)
Just like every child (Just like every child)
Needs to find a place:
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we’ll be safe.






E la fede che (And the faith that)
Hai acceso in noi (You have lit inside us)
Sento che ci salverà (I believe will save us).














A young bride asked me to sing "The Prayer" on her wedding day in middle of January. It was not easy for me though and being away from huge celebrations for a couple of years, I was quite apprehensive if I can still make it. Unable to find someone to sing the male part(it was supposed to be a duet), I travelled few extra miles to ask my dad, who never failed granting my wishes, and he readily said "yes". I showed him Celine Dion's album, "These are Special Times" a night before the wedding and the singer that he has been in his own right, was able to pick up Andrea Bocelli's part quickly. Early morning, we rehearsed together to my mom's delight and off we went to the chapel where the ceremony would take place. Unable to sing as often as I did in the past, I was a little nervous when I started the first two lines of the song. Yet I loosened up and I smiled confidently when people staying outside the much- filled tiny village chapel, tried their best to have a peek-with much excitement and anticipation in their eyes. Some procceded inside and tried to find their own place inside the chapel when the male part of the song was performed.
After the wedding ceremony, the church organiser told me that this song " The Prayer" was sung for the first time in this chapel, she loved it and asked a copy. After my singing part, I took photos in that memourable occasion and the song, which has always awed me, has become more meaningful since then- due to the following reasons:





First, my mom was very happy and proud as she sat in the pews watching me singing with my Dad for the first time( he always sang with my mom in special and not so special occasions when i was growing up and still living with them along with my siblings). Second, I disregarded any advice of possible allergenic reactions as I wanted to have my hair coloured the way I want it- a thing I have not been allowed to do the past couple of years. I still have to see any reaction whatsoever but being away from big events for quite a while, the new hair colour( i always change my hairstyle every six months in the past), gave me a "lift. Being quite vain sometimes, I can't stop smiling everytime I look at my reflection in the mirror.









Third, the wedding took place in one of the towns of North Cotabato which was much part of the news of MILF rampage in August of last year. Having been to Zamboanga provinces and passing by Lanao del Sur and del Norte provinces on my way yo Iligan and Cagayan de Oro around a couple of years back, I am much comfortable in this place even if in the recent months, it got national attention due to news of bombings, or foiled bombing attempts. I dropped by the place a week before the wedding and while walking on the highway one sunny afternoon, I saw how thrilled the locals were(I was trying to buy for a bread and a drink at a bake shoppe but the attendant's attention was somewhere else- at the sight of a couple of dashing American soldiers, probably just passing by or doing their own surveillance as a part of their agreed joint effort with the Philippine government(I gathered from a fruit vendor that the sight of Filipino troopers are no longer extraordinary) to achieve or maintain peace in the south. I had a quick glance at the American soldiers who remained oblivious at the attention they were getting from the crowd,and I continued my" discovery" walk. There was an urge for me to take photos but I decided not to -to minimise some sort of attention and be mistaken as a "tourist" or "journalist" and did my unobtrusive observations of what has been going in the town. It was a memourable yet fun walk.









Fourth, the song made to remember and value the lives lost in the battlefields of Mindanao, from the government and rebel forces, including that of the civilians' lives disturbed, dislocated or lost in the process of seeking "peace".









Finally, it pierces my heart remembering what has been going on in Gaza Strip(as of the moment there was a ceasefire) and other parts of the world. "The Prayer", has itself became "My Prayer" noting these words:
Sognamo un mondo senza più violenza (We dream [of] a world without more violence)
Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza (A world of justice and of hope).
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino (Everyone give your hand to your neighbor),
Simbolo di pace e di fraternità (Symbol of peace and brotherhood)
And I pray that my prayer and all the prayers of others out there will find some answers somehow, some time. Perhaps soon?